Breath, just breath....

I keep telling my self that. Breath, a deep breath and don't panic. I hate celebrating Bethanie's birthday without her. This year seems to be so much harder than the years past. Not sure why. Things are down here today, you can feel the sadness in the air. Not from the kids but from Sam and myself. We are not talking that much, and I have caught him staring into space many times. We did not go to church this morning, decided today was a day for us to just set here. I pray that the day gets better, but things don't seem to be going in that direction. I have kicked my OCD in to high gear, and cleaned out the freezer and about to start on the cabinets. Happy 10th birthday Bethanie...I love you and miss you dearly!!

A shopping we will go....

Ok, time for me to shop. My husband is out of town and I need some new clothes. I mean going from a size 16 to a size 8 in 4 months can cause the clothes to fall off. I mean not that I mind having to squeeze my butt into an 8 or anything..but the clothes are SOOOOOO expensive now days. So as Sam goes off for a fishing tournament (in which he is going to freeze), I am staying mighty warm in the department stores. We should help out the economy right? Well, I am willing to do my part!! I mean IF I HAVE TO!! LOL LOL

So I am figuring Wal-mart is the first stop, need some cute shirts and I love wal-mart. Then on to Stage to see what they have in store for the girls. I ordered Aleeyah the cutest smock dress from ebay (my favorite place). I love the boutique clothes they have on there for the girls. This little dress was adorable, and I HAD to have it. Of course, Sam don't know about it. I usually won't spend any money if I have to watch it go out of my hand lol. Like in Stage, I will look and look, but then I won't spend a dime. If I am on ebay, I just paypal the thing and I don't see it exiting my hand!! Stupid I know, but that is a thought that makes me feel better!! This little smocked dress will be perfect for church, and I pray it is warm enough for her to wear it sunday. I am going to Stage to find a pair of Keds for her to wear with it. I am looking for a light blue big hair ribbon for her to match. I can't wait to see her in it. For Averrie there was this adorable pink sparkly dress that will look adorable on her!!

Well bed is calling my name so that the stores will see me early...

Here is to the last of spring break..

Happy Birthday Baby!!!

Well.........

Another year has came and went. Sunday is Bethanie's 10th birthday! This day (other than her angel-versary) is a dreaded event. I have promised myself that I am going to be better this year. Last year I was irritated all day and snapped like a bomb at the girls. It is just so hard sometimes to think about another birthday that she is not here. Another day that I have to be here without her!! I can't imagine what she would be like, how she would be doing in school? The saddest part of her birthday is the fact that I wanted to see her achieve so many things, and I only got to the walking part. That was the last thing that I got to share with her. The rest is bad images in my mind of that horrible day!! It is hard to be left with so little good memories (she wasn't here long), and so many bad memories (they out number the good). So I want to wish Bethanie Nichole a very very happy birthday....and I pray the next 2 days go by quickly!!!

I feel a bit "rumbly"...

Redoubt Volcano~ 5 Eruptions as of 10pm last night

Ok, there is something going on. Have you noticed that lately there are volcano's erupting and earthquakes in the oddest of places. One of my hobbies, is monitoring all the volcano's and earthquakes around the world. I write each one down, and mark them on a map. I know sounds weird, but it is neat to see where the next one will pop up. The recent eruption of Redoubt in Alaska, has me wondering what the tectonic plates are doing? Since Redoubt is located within the famous Ring of Fire, I would expect it to be quite active. I know that most of you don't find my blogs interesting, but this is so neat to track LOL.

Did you know that there were 914 (and still counting) earthquakes in the states in the last month? There have been 20 around the world today alone. Most of which have epicenters around California. You know that California and Alaska are the two main contributors of the United States earthquakes, with Alaska being the main contributor of active volcano's. You all know about Science and the layout of the tectonic plates, fault lines, and such. Have you ever looked at the Biblical "science" of these earthquakes and volcano's? It says that in the end days that there will earthquakes in diverse places. Well lets look up the word "diverse" the dictionary states means :

–adjective
1.
of a different kind, form, character, etc.; unlike: a wide range of diverse opinions.
2.
of various kinds or forms; multiform

So many think that the word diverse means places where earthquakes are not seen often. We see that this passage just means that it is different locations. It does not specify that they are remote or unusual places, just different places. So we can look at the locations of some of these earthquakes:

3/17- Mag: 2.5 4 miles West of Ragland, Alabama

3/15- Mag: 3.1 3 miles East of Hoback, Wyoming

3/16- Mag: 1.1 3 miles NW of Ridgely, Tennessee

3/23-Mag: 5.2 Carlsberg Ridge near Qalansiyah, Socotra Island, Yemen

3/22- Mag: 3.2 Off the coast of Oregon

3/22- Mag:3.2 9 Miles South of Kanarraville, Utah

3/19 Mag: 7.6 (Major) 135 SSE of Nuku'Alofa, Tonga (another today with Mag: 5.2)

I have over 10 sheets of paper with earthquake reports wrote down, and this is a FEW in the last week to two weeks. I just think that this is so interesting, that there are so many earthquakes hitting the states and the world all at the same time....could it be close to the end?

Cleveland Volcano~~ Activity being detected

Let them be little...........

In Everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.

1 Thessalonians 5:28

Have you ever wished that you could go back in time? Be little again and have no worries? I would love to be the age I was in the picture above. No worries, no fears (except for the dark), and have everything taken care of for you? I look at my girls playing today and realize that they are growing up. They are growing up before my eyes, and I no longer have babies. Soon they will be going to school, dating, married, and then having children of their own. They will be setting my seat one day, and be watching their children play. I have never really thought of how fast time flies. That was till I had the girls. In 9 days Bethanie would be 10. That does not seem right!! She has been gone 9 years, and I don't even remember where the time went. I have came to realize something else.....enjoy your children. Time will surely pass you by if you don't. Take time out to make memories with them. To make those types of memories that you think about when your eating turkey on Thanksgiving day. You remember playing in the snow when you were young and having Easter egg fights. Or finding that one egg that had a whole dollar in it. That was allot of money to a small child. Or riding around on the back of daddy while he played the horse. You need to make those memories... My girls have grown up so fast. Aleeyah will be five in August, and Averrie will be three in September. Those memories that I have made with them will be the ones they will tell their children about many years from now.

Averrie Samarah just minutes old

Aleeyah Faithe 2 Weeks Old

They are growing up way to fast

My two little ones today!!

Bronchitis, ear infection, sinus infection OH MY!!!!

Well, when Aleeyah was two the doctor diagnosed her with anemia. I was worried to death. Low iron, what on earth would cause that? I mean I feed her, she takes vitamins..what did I do wrong!! So they gave her iron. Today, Aleeyah was sick, and I took her to the doctor. He was so excited that the iron worked and Aleeyah has not had to be seen by him in over a year. That is wonderful!!
Of course then he gets to why she is sick today!! Bronchitis, sinus infection, ear infection...OH MY!! I mean if there was anything else I would have fell out of the chair. He tested her for strep, and that was negative. He was surprised that it was negative. He said her throat looked so bad!! So once again, in the life of Stacy, I am up with a sick baby girl. You know what though, I praise the Lord that she is healthy. She don't have to take iron anymore, and she is healthy!!!!! If I can just get her through this :-)......
If we can keep Averrie (our sickly) from coming down with it, I will be amazed!!!

Springing Forward (I think)

Today was BEAUTIFUL!!!!! This weather always give me spring fever, even though with Arkansas weather who knows what tomorrow will bring! Of course looking at www.weather.com it shows that we are going to have a wonderful high of 40 degrees on Thursday UGGGG!!!!!!! At least we got things done today. Aleeyah was sick with a fever last night and a horrible cough, so church was out for me this morning. Sam went and took Averrie, and said she made quite a spectacle!! Grabbing Sam by the hand in the middle of service and demanding they go home!! I bet the preacher enjoyed that one LOL...

So when they got home we decided that it was time to till the garden spot, and get ready for flower beds. Yes, we have lived here 8 years and I have no flower beds. Why, you may ask? I hate dirt. I can not stand to have my hands in it, I hate to get in a flower bed to do anything with it.

I know that is strange, but it is something that has always been a peeve of mine. Even when I was little, I would not play out side and if I did I would scream if I got any dirt on me. Mom would think I was dying and it was a speck of dirt. Guess what, Aleeyah is just like me. Averrie got in that garden and walked on that fresh dirt with bare feet. She would not keep her shoes on. Then there was Aleeyah who cried and told us NOPE, that is not happening with me. Bless her heart!!

I opened all the windows today, cleaned all the floors, and all the laundry is finished!!! I even scrubbed the edge of the hardwoods with a toothbrush! Tomorrow is supposed to be another wonderful day, and I hear the windows calling my name!! Time to clean them inside and out. We opened the french doors today, onto the screened in porch and just let the air blow through the house. Of course Max the cat loved it. Since he never gets to see outside LOL...

I love that screened in porch and can't wait till spring is in full bloom, so that dinners can be served on the table I have out there. I can't wait!!

Well, guess I will run, dinner dishes need to be finished!! Hope everyone has a wonderful week...

Just think spring break is soon!!!!!!!!