Giveaway!

Shauna is having her 100th post giveaway!! You guys go and check it out!!!

Birthday Preparations begin.

Yes, there is over a month left before Aleeyah's birthday party. I have to have everything done before that day. I can't stand to wait till the last minute to do anything for her birthday. Since her birthday falls on a Monday this year, that means the week after we get back from Branson we will have her party. That really doesn't give me alot of time to prepare. Aleeyah picked her theme this year and the winner was Pink Poodles in Paris. So, here are her hair bows and her adorable dress.

Thanks to JE*Designs, Aleeyah has this cute dress/bloomers to wear the day of her party. I am making her party invites!! I will post them at a later time. I got her party supplies all bought and they are being shipped to me this wkend. Of course after Aleeyah's party we have around 3 weeks before we are forced to prepare for Averrie's party. UGGGG!!!! Aleeyah's birthday list is huge this year. I mean a Nintendo DS and all the games! A carrying case! WOW, what happened to a doll? I know that this means she is just growing up.

I have Jaren (my nephew) three days a week, and his momma asked me to take some pictures of him yesterday. This is the finished product. Jaren would not take the hat off, and would cry when I tried to take it. He looks so much like his daddy it just blows me away. Jana (his mom), wanted a shot in just a diaper with a tie, I told her the hat was a prop I had not intended on!!

Last but not least, I have a prayer request to pass along. A friend of mine has a daughter who is 7 years old. She does not want her name out so I will just leave her daughters initials which are MG. She has been having a rash on her body for some time with a lot of swelling. They took her to a specialist today and they think she has Lupus. Lupus is a disease in which the body builds antibodies that fight the body. Hard to explain, but serious. Please keep MG in your prayers as well as her parents. Pray that they have wrongly diagnosed this baby girl, if not the years ahead will be extremely hard for her.

And the winner is............

The winner is.......

These are cell phone images, so excuse them. My camera was not charged (I know bad photographer), and I don't have a little point and shoot camera to grab shots.

So as bad as it looks this is Aleeyah digging in the bowl.

The winner is Shauna Bell Wagner!!!!! Aleeyah is happy to pose with the ticket, since she is in need of a serious cut on those bangs!!! I have to cut her bangs every two-three weeks, if not they look like this! It says Shauna I swear lol.

So Mrs. Shauna if you will send me a comment on here letting me know how you want me to get these things to you, that would be great! Congratulations girl on both winning and the potty training going with little one!!!

Just days away.

So Sam and myself are just days away from our 12th wedding anniversary. I set and wonder what to get him, and he sets and tells me what NOT to get him. After your married for this long you think you know the person really well. WRONG!! They continue to change, their interest change, and once they have everything you get a little stumped. On the stories that I have been posting we are past Aleeyah and Averrie's birth. One thing I forgot to mention in there was the fact that in between Bethanie's death and having Aleeyah, both Sam and myself asked the Lord for forgiveness and became Christians. We began studying the bible, and praising God through all our tribulations. He continues to bless us today.

So in the years after Aleeyah and Averrie was born, things have been rather un-eventful. Besides raising to wild girls, praising God daily, building on to the house, Sam working ALOT there has been nothing. We took our first family vacation this last year to Branson, and loved it. We continue to go back again and again. We leave in 2 wks for another week on Table Rock Lake. I can't wait.

We have had our ups and downs in our marriage, but then again who don't? Who doesn't have those fights when one sleeps on the couch? Who doesn't say things that they don't mean, only to take them back quickly? Who doesn't, at the end of the day, wish things had gone differently? Then realize that God put you in this place for a reason? That is what love is all about, to live and learn, to love and smile. I look at my children and I thank God daily that he sent Sam my way. I know that he had a hand in us finally finding each other.

I will post pictures (if I get anything), of my gift and what I finally decide to get him. Prayerfully I have another 12 years to love this husband of mine, and if the Lord sees fit to take me I will go with a smile upon my face. Knowing that to love a person as much as I do my husband is to live a life of joy and peace!!!!

Okay my peeps!!! Giveaway TIME!!

It is time to give something away! I have 100 posts on my blog, as boring as they may be, I got to a 100. So I have decided to give somethings away.

First, if your like me I am ALWAYS making notes every where. So this is a magnetic note pad that will hang on the fridge. I have one and I LOVE IT, makes it easy to jot down what I need right then.

Then there is this adorable ceramic plaque. It is around a 3x5 and can hang or set on a table. I just love these little things and have them all over the house.

Last, but not least, there is a frame. This frame has 3- 3x5 openings. As you can see it says "Live, Laugh, Love" on it and is black. Just adorable!!!

I don't have alot of followers so you guys don't have to do anything. No comments (unless you want to :0), no links on your blog (once again unless you want to), nothing. I am going to put everyone that is a follower of my blog into a basket and let Aleeyah pull a name out. That lucky person will be the winner of these three prizes.

Just a way to say thanks to you guys for following and hopefully reading my blog!!

Time passed, prayers answered

8 1/2 months

As the years passed, we had been married 7 years when I decided that I wanted another baby. After many months of trying I decided to go to the doctor. Sure enough there was a problem and I was put on Clomid the beginning of the next month. I hated the clomid and decided that it would be God's will if I got pregnant. So I quit the pills and decided that I would just go at it alone. Sometime later I went back to the doctor wanting to try it again. I had taken the Clomid for so long the last time and was unhappy with the way it made me feel but I had to try it again. I wanted a baby so bad, and knew that was the only way it would happen. I took the Clomid one month and was pregnant. I was excited yet so scared to have another a child.
Aleeyah Faithe was born via c-section on August the 31st 2004. She weighed 8lbs 8oz. When they brought her to me she was in piggy tails, and was the chunkiest baby I had ever seen. Her daddy was so proud of her, as was I, but it was hard to think I had another girl. I didn't want to "replace" my memories of Bethanie.

9 months

18 months later Aleeyah was getting ready for her first baby pageant. I was so excited, but knew that I had not been feeling real well. I just couldn't figure it out, but knew that pregnancy was not the reason. I had to take fertility with Aleeyah so there was NO way that I could get pregnant that easy. On the morning of the pageant it was icing outside and I told Sam the night before to bring home a test just in case. I took it that morning and it was instantly positive.
On September 26th, 2006 Averrie Samarah came into this world. She weighed 8lbs and 4 oz. She had no hair lol. Not like the other two girls. As you can see above, she looked just like Aleeyah did when she was a baby. After my c-section with Averrie, I opted to have my tubes tied. I was done having children, for 10 years we had been trying to have a family. Now it was time to raise our family.

I will be having my first giveaway this week, hard to believe I have posted 100 times. You guys be looking for it.

Our many firsts!!!

Our First Home

I can't find the pictures of our first home, when I do I will post them. We bought a trailer house that needed some work and placed it on some land by his mom and dad. I had lived in a trailer all my life, so it wasn't anything new to me. I hated everything about that trailer, the location, the things that needed to be done to it to fix it. I completely re-wall papered the house, and put new carpet. We re-tiled all the bathrooms and the kitchen and painted all the bedrooms. It was looking so good and was really beginning to feel like home.

Our first Child

After a year of trying to get pregnant with so many let downs, on August 1st, 1998 (our one year anniversary) I found out I was pregnant. I had cried so many times with so many neg test that I was amazed when I see that test turn positive. The picture above is my dad's mom and myself at my baby shower. I am in labor here and trying to force a smile as I have a contraction.
I was at mom's when full labor started. My contractions were 5 min apart and getting closer and I decided that I had better call Sam from work to get me. We go to the hospital and they tell me that I was dilated to a 3 and they would rather me walk than lay. I have a LOW pain tolerance and told them I was NOT walking. I laid in that bed for 21 1/2 hours in hard labor, when my doctor decided to go and have a steak. My mother screamed at the nurse and told her that she had better get him there NOW, I was telling mom that something was breaking.

Finally, the doctor came and informed me that I was only at a 7 and I was going to have a c-section. Scared as I was, I was ready to have that baby. The pain had lasted way to long and I was ready.

On March 29th at 8:48pm our first daughter was born. She weighed 8lbs 4oz and was 21 1/2 inches long. She had loads of hair as you can tell from the picture above. We had decided on a name months earlier, having heard the name Bethany in the bible. I had always wanted a little girl with the middle name Nichole, so we named her Bethanie Nichole Frost. On this joyous day we could have never known what was in store for us.

As you can tell her daddy was a proud man. This is my favorite picture of them, look at the way Bethanie is looking at him. She had the cutest little chunky face, and her hair was black as coal.

This is Bethanie at 3 weeks with her aunt Jeanne (Sam's baby sister). I was always so particular about her clothes, her hair, and her ribbons. Everything had to match to a tee!!

Our first birthday party!

This is Bethanie's first birthday. We had the party at our house, and was unable to have any children there. Bethanie had spent the night in the ER with RSV, and could be around no little kids. All the parents came and she still had a blast. We could have never known that this would be the last birthday with our little angel.
This is Bethanie in her new birthday outfit, specially bought for her party. Isn't she adorable?

Our first heartbreak~~Test of faith

Our first heartbreak came on the morning of July the 20th 2000. I had a hair appointment so I decided that I would ask my mother n law to watch Bethanie for me. Since my mother n law and me had been at odds the last year I was hesitant to leave her there. After my hair appointment, I decided that it was nap time for her and I was going to try to lay down with her. She had RSV again and we were so tired. I laid her down and laid down with her, and that was the last time I seen her alive. I won't go into detail on what happened that day since I am limited on time and my husband (who won't talk about it) is right here with me.

Bethanie passed away on July 21st, 2000, 12 hours after we found her in the pond. This was our first test of faith, and our first test of our love in our marriage. I was unsure if we could pass this test that we were being put through.

The first thing we did!

The first thing after the funeral was to sell that trailer. I didn't want to go home to that place. Her crackers were still laying on the living room table. Her shoes were still where she had taken them off at. The smell of baby lotion still in the air. Her baby room still the same. I didn't want to call that place home, I wanted to get rid of the house. I went to get her things, and looked out the back window, you could see the pond, and that made up my mind.

So we sold the trailer and moved into an apartment. We both got third shift jobs and spent as much time away from each other as we could. We wanted nothing to do with each other and it was taking it's toll on us and it was not good. Our marriage was suffering and our faith in God failing. That was when we decided to separate, yes separate. It was Sam's decision, and I was okay if he needed time. We were not apart long when we realized we need the Lord and we needed each other. In 2001 we built a new home, together, with our own hands. We laid the foundation cinder block by cinder block. We put each log on it and hammered every nail. This was going to be home and we wanted to do it ourselves. One year later, our home was built. We were on our way to trying to mend things that were broken, and build new lives, always missing the little girl we lost.