I guess I have something seriously wrong with me. Since Aleeyah has turned 5 and Averrie will be 3 in a week, I have been having these feelings for another baby!!! I have wanted that smell of a newborn, that feel of the feet and fingers. Then I wonder what on EARTH am I doing!! My tubes are tied, cut, and burnt, there is NO way that I could have a baby. I then wonder why on earth I did that, why did I get fixed? I knew that I would want another baby, I knew it would happen. That strong feeling of wanting to be a mother AGAIN!
Sam says that I am nuts and that I am just loosing it!! It is just my kids are growing up and there is NOTHING that I can do about it! NOTHING! I love to see them grow, learn and change, but I want to hold another baby, name another baby, love another baby. I have thought of adoption, but who wants to have the chance of some mother coming back to take the baby? I don't, I have lost before and I know that hurt. Of course I am not rich so any method that they use for infertility is OFF. Am I selfish? Am I wrong for having these feelings? I mean, I have two healthy, beautiful children, am I wrong to want to have another. There are so many mothers out there that can't have children. They would just be happy with one, and here I am wanting a 4th. I did this to myself, I agreed to the tubal, Dr R tried to talk me out of it. I just kept saying NO more!! Now here I am wanting MORE!!!
HA HA I am crazy aren't I? I know that this will pass. I mean could I seriously want the up all nights? My kiddos sleep through the night and I am loving that. I think I need to find someone with a baby and love on it a while lol. Get me over this feeling!! LOL!!! You guys help me, make me remember the all nighter's, the feedings, oh the poopydiapers (both mine are potty trained now). Come on guys help me out lol!!!!!
Thanks for letting me vent!!!
Thanks for letting me vent!!!
Oh dear! I hope I don't get that way in another few months- when mine are those ages. Right now, I don't even want to hold a baby for more than a few min! My worst baby memory is the painful boobs!! lol. I soooo would not want to have that feeling again! =)
ReplyDeleteha ha...You will when they both are in school and you think that you don't have a baby anymore....
ReplyDeleteYou can borrow either one of mine anytime you want!! LOL...no seriously!
ReplyDeleteHubby and I have always just wanted two. We even talked about me getting my tubes tied after we had Bubba...but it didn't happen. I was scared that I would be like you are now....the kids would be in school, and I would long for another one. Right now, though, I'm doing everything I can to prevent a third one!!!
Shauna, I will PAY you to have one lol lol...I can play with it love and send it home ha ha ha ha ...You guys it is BAD
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