Such tragedy....

Flooding on the Caddo River at Gleenwood.
This little girl is missing from the Albert Pike flood. Please look at her face, and if anyone sees her please contact someone. Her name is Jayden and she is 7 years old. Her father and sister are missing, and her mother is still alive.

As many know by now, Arkansas has once again been hit by devastation. The Albert Pike campground was flooded by flash flooding thursday night. I awoke yesterday morning to all sorts of emails, alerts and news pages stating that 16 had been killed and many more missing or injured. I just wanted to curl up. Hopefully I don't know anyone over there, but even if I don't, the stories of the kids drowning and the horrific stories coming out of there is heart wrenching. God has plans and I don't try to question them, and I know that we should praise him in this storm. That is what is helping me to keep my head up.

All the images are hard though. And I know what the parents that have lost their little children are thinking. I remember thinking those nights and weeks after Bethanie drowned, "was she crying for me?" "Was she scared?" "Did she wonder why mommie wasn't helping her?"

Each parent that has lost a child in this tragedy is thinking the same thing right now. Their world has been ripped apart in the twinkle of an eye.

Mothers watched as their husbands were washed away with their children in his hands. How can you live with such an image in your mind for the rest of your life? I couldn't! Just seeing or hearing these images, brings back the flood of smells, pictures, and things that happened that day with Bethanie.

They are saying now that there could be up to 300 ppl in that area. 300 PEOPLE!! So many lost and missing, so many feared dead. How can one do their job of finding these people? I would ache and be torn apart forever!

I didn't sleep last night, and eating hasn't been on my list of things to do. I haven't had but a few bites in the last two days. I guess my body is just not wanting to think about things, and if I eat I get sick at my stomach.

I wasn't even there you guys, and I can see the images of people fighting for their lives in that water. I just don't understand why this is hitting me so hard. I just don't understand!!

I know it has everything to do with Bethanie, and I have heard of many people loosing their lives in water since her. I think more than likely it is the fact these people didn't know what was happening. These small children didn't know what was hitting them and didn't know what to do when it did happen. Defenseless I guess is the word for it. I am terrified since we leave tomorrow morning for a week camping trip in Branson. We are staying on the water at Tablerock lake. I am scared to go, I am scared to stay. It is supposed to rain, how will I cope with that? I just don't know what to do. I really don't want to go, but the family promise me that a lake won't do that. A river will, but a lake won't! I pray their right!! You guys please help me in praying for all these families, help to pray that the victims are found alive, that the families find comfort in the Lord!!

I won't question the Lord, I won't ask why. I will accept his hand in this and will praise his holy name. Not my will Lord, but thine will!!